Feb 18, 2013

Day two:
Waking up at 11 on a Monday morning felt freaking lovely. I don't miss him as much today because I realized, you know what.. choosing a girl over your best friend just because you wanna get laid is lame. He'll miss me and he'll crawl back, not the other way around. I stayed up till three this morning talking to Taylor, he makes me feel better. He doesn't really judge me and laughs at all my jokes, which is something I love. xD I miss my boyfriend.. he hasn't talked to me in over a week now, I'm scared. :( I don't know why but my ex asked me to move in with him cause he doesn't want me to move all the way to Toronto for college.. what an awkward moment that was. My feet are frozen and I had a little bit of frost bite this morning. :( I'm so excited to turn 17 in 7 weeks. Today's family day and all my family has done is argue. My feet are freezing and I just wanna sleep the rest of this day away. I also have mood swings, which is not fun at all. D: 

Feb 17, 2012.

Day one: 

My first day without my "best friend" Dan. It's been okay, I guess. I spent the day with my actual best friends Ashton and Mariah. I fucking hate how everytime Dan gets a girlfriend I suddenly don't matter. I've almost been friends with him for a freaking year and this is how he treats me -.- . I've been posting sad stuff on Twitter and Tumblr.. I wonder if he's seen my tweets. Josh was supposed to text me yesterday but still hasn't. I feel like I'm a burden when I'm sad because I expect people to feel sorry for me when if I would've listened to a certain someone I wouldn't be in this boat at all. I'm trying to be happy but it's impossible right now. Like my baby, Ed Sheeran turned 22 today and that didn't even help. :( I fucking hate guys.. why does this always happen to me? What do I do to deserve it? I was nothing but good to him. I even put up with him when he was high, which is not easy at all guys. This is the second time he's done this. I literally don't know what to do anymore. Everytime life is going great something like this happens and instantly everything is all shitty all over again. :( I've never tried to not cry so many times in one freaking day.. this is sad. Obviously getting laid is much more important than I am. 

Bye :'(.